Alone

by Lauren R.

You were my best friend,
The only one I could trust,
And then you lied to me,
I died a little more inside.

Each time you lie,
I die a little inside,
Yet you keep on lying.
And all I can do is ask myself "why?"

Now I'm alone,
I've realised I can't trust anyone.
I'll never trust anyone truly ever again,
Are you happy with yourself now?

Trying to be better than me,
Smarter than me,
So much pain inside me now,
No way to get rid of it,
Proud of yourself?

But along with the pain there's hate,
Pure hate.
Don't worry,
It's not at you; It's at myself.

I hate myself.
Why?
because people like you
always do this to me.
There must be something wrong with me
for this to happen.

Its all my fault.
That doesn't mean that I'm going to be,
friends with you again though.
I'm going to stay away from everyone.

I might just become a loner,
Than no one including myself will
ever have to go through this again.
No one will hurt me,
If I don't care about them
they can't hurt me,
Right?