I Am OK

by Sophie
(Ireland)

I am okay,
Even though I think I'll never be
Realistically

I have to be,
What else would keep me living.

20 years of solid pain
It's not my fault, It's not all my fault
or your's Mum -

Sometimes I just have to have
someone to blame.

Turn back time; impossible,
where do we go from here?

It's not my fault, it's not all my fault.

My dream is to be okay.
Something most people take for granted.
We all have our cross.

A moment would do to remind me I'm still there.
Sometimes I make myself sick -
with what I did to those I love

Destroyed myself because it was easier than
facing up to what I had to face up to.
Then i developed a cigarette addiction.

Someday I'll be okay - I hope.