ON MISSING MY MOTHER
by Nkamang Tsotetsi
(Pretora, Gauteng, SA)
My angel guardian mother
What a vast void you had left in my life
20 years seem like 2 minutes ago
I have children who have no one to call a granny
This makes my heart so heavy and feels like a needle has pierced through
What does one think on the absence of someone as dear as you
Take my life and follow you, live in your shadow
Life does not seem to be worth living
My daughter your grandchild knows you not
The gap she feels on seeing your photos
The dreams she has of you
Or should it be called your visits to her in her sleep
It is not fathomable the vacuum you left, unfilled
I see you in stars above, the moon in the night
I see you when I look in the mirror
I hear you in the sound of Mahalia Jackson and Ella Fitzgerald
Upon seeing and hearing this, I sleep with you all through the night
I lost your touch dear mother, I had you once
I take solace in the upbringing you instilled in me
Upbringing to be a strong woman of faith
A woman of faith you were
You now reside in my heart of hearts
You are not around but you are in our lives
Thank you mother for having been you