There's this Girl.

by Brandi McNeil
(Canada)

There's this girl who knows no feeling but pain.
She hates life and lives in vain.
There's this girl who cries everyday,
Not knowing any better way.
There's this girl who lies awake in bed at night,
Only contemplating suicide.
There's this girl who hesitates with every step she takes,
From the very moment that she awakes.
Only because each step she takes is wrong,
And makes her feel like she doesn't belong.
There's this girl who knows how to fake every smile and laugh she makes,
So she doesn't have to explain all the problems and mistakes.
There's this girl who hates taking each breath,
Only because she wants to feel death.
There's this girl that stares in a mirror,
Only to see that she's walking fear.
It's funny 'cause this girl is me,
And this is the girl I never wanted myself to be